Recently, a couple of people have told me that I inspire them. The first time someone told me this, it really blew my mind (I am terrible at taking complements), and most days I feel like I am going to drop one of the many balls I am juggling. Then I really thought about what they were saying.
My type A personality means that I tend to set a really high bar for myself. In my pre-baby days, reaching that bar wasn't nearly as hard. My commitments and responsibilities were far fewer, but since E has been born it doesn't feel like I have been meeting my goals that often. Something, often a sick child, a really terrible night or work commitment, always seems to get in the way. Instead of getting 5 to 6 workouts in a week, it would be 2 or 3. (This is part of what inspired my 20 in 30 Challenge.)
That said, no matter how crazy life got, I always tried to get out and be active. There was always another day or another week to get something in. Squeezing in lunch workouts...did it. Yoga after E was asleep...did it. Fitness is something I feel is important and something that I value. It keeps me sane, or at least sane-ish, but I also want to set a good example for E.
The more I think about it, that is what could really be inspiring. Living your values. As I think about the things that I want to do in the long run, I need to remember that someday, there will be more time to run, and bike, and workout whenever I want. However, there will be fewer giggles about nothing, fewer snuggles, and fewer "hot dog dance" parties. So I am okay with being a little slower and a little less fit for now.
For right now, I am going to continue to live my values, and if I can inspire some people along the way, that is cool. Hopefully, I can inspire E to live her values too.